Imagine murdering a man, smearing him in shit, pouring nasty, far outdated milk in his rotting corpse and pissing in his mouth. Then imagine dragging him around the house, all the fluids getting into every nook and cranny of the house.
Everyday at 4:30pm, I am woken up to this horrendous smell. I do my best to cover my nose with the blankets while rolling over and trying to get back to sleep (to no avail). Around 5pm, the smell has sunk even into my blanket and I am forced to breathe through my mouth as I scurry to open up all the windows.
This process takes about 10 minutes and if I dare get one little particle of that smell in my nose I literally begin to throw up in my mouth (like I did just now).
It's snowing and the porch is covered in snow but I run over to the window and press my nose up against it just to get some fucking fresh air smell. God hates me for not giving me a stuffy nose through all this. I'd rather get sick and die than continue to smell this horrible fucking smell. Correction, I'd rather put a fucking BULLET through my head than continue to smell this smell.
I have to do my best for hours on end not to breathe through my nose because it smells so sickening.
The only options are a gas mask or to move out. Dad said that he would rather move out then continue to smell this shit, so I suppose that's what we'll be doing.
THIS MAY NOT MEAN A LOT TO YOU BUT I BEAT GREEN GRASS & HIGH TIDES!
I'VE BEEN MEANING TO BEAT IT FOREVER. But I hadn't figured out how. I was going to go to bed last night and I told my dad, "hang on I finally think I figured it out". And I did. I just was using the star power way too soon. Now I can beat it any time.. just because I know how to use the star power.
Wheewww.. that means I also hit 7000 gamerscore. I'm surprised...
&apologies; I have really, really been meaning to update this thing with something useful. Really. I have really good intentions but I haven't gotten around to it. So here I am! ♥
&writing; I want to write so much. I know, I'll probably rp with Matt dizzle sometime soon but it's really itching me... so I maybe will write some sort of fanfic about Gears something soon. I've had this creative feeling for the past few days and I don't know what it's about. Maybe it's because I haven't been creative enough lately? So if you see a story placed in this journal sometime, you can read it or don't, it doesn't matter to me. But I bet you'll be seeing one from me soon.
&gaming; Meh.. I broke my gaming streak today because I didn't get on. Maybe I just feel less like gaming lately? Rock Band has been bleh (I need a break from it) and COD4 is impossible on Veteran and lost its addictiveness on Multiplayer. I could play Viva Pinata but I didn't really feel like it today.. and Sneak King is definitely for days that I feel like playing it.
&drama; There was a lot of drama today which surely insured at first that I would have weekend plans, then they were torn away from me. Yeah, shitty, but oh well. I'll get over it. I just feel like I'm going to lose friends over bullshit and I don't really want to... I might not seem like it, but I really, REALLY hate drama. It stresses me out and I tend to want to eliminate stress sources (a part of a reason why I quit high school).
&topmodel; I watched Season 9 of America's Next Top Model and I was totally blown away, shocked, and OFFENDED by who was top model. I won't spoil it because it's a fairly recent season but once again I feel when it came down to the last two, the person who really deserved it got ripped off. It wasn't so much of an injustice as Season 8 though. Natasha TOTALLY deserved every ounce of that prize and I'm glad to hear she's still out there modeling. I wanted to use her in my new layout but I couldn't find a high enough quality picture, unfortunately.
&life; I want to see what we can do about my GED this weekend. I'm going to go take a test hopefully this weekend to see if I can take the GED without study (hopefully I can) and if it's possible I'll just jump and take the real test. Then I will need a car to drive so that I can learn, which comes down to fixing our cars with tax returns. Then, I will get a job.. then I will visit him.
&taxreturns; For tax returns, Dad said it was possible to get a new monitor which I severely need because this one is major suckage. Also he said we're getting both our cars fixed which is great. He said he was going to sell the Grand Prix and get me a new car most likely.. and I said it would be better on insurance and easier to drive if he got a smaller Japanese one. I just feel more comfortable because I'm so fucking short if I'm driving a smaller car.
&etc; There's PROBABLY things I'm forgetting. I'm that type of person. However, if I remember anything I'll add it in? Or just make a new entry if it's significant enough. Happy Friday everyone and remember: not everything is as it seems. Good night.
note: i posted this on jphip because i needed a host.. but it's basically the whole story
Well.. how do I begin this nightmare?
What happened first is someone told me about tehlove hosting at [tehlove.org/.](http://tehlove.org/.) Their plans were really well priced (but not free) and I begged my grandmother for $20 to get a medium sized plan. I registered [songforxx.org](http://songforxx.org) and they were up fairly quickly.
I used my domain on and off because that's how it seemed to want to work-- on and off. The host frankly sucked, the site was always down and I was beginning to wonder what I paid for. I know, I know, "you get what you pay for" but I wasn't willing to drop another $100 on a domain that I don't use THAT often.
I finally started to use it a little more... and the host said that they were shutting down. They said that our domains would remain in tact for as long as we paid for it. Great! I didn't care if they were shutting down as long as they made good with what I paid for. I was starting to make plans for the domain, I had great plans for it in 2008.
Then I get an e-mail today which says they have to "transfer the domain names" and they're getting rid of their reseller. That's right... ditching on everyone who paid, no matter if they got their full year or only 5 months (like myself). Well, if I'm getting half the product, shouldn't I have paid half the price? That $10 could've gone toward something, I don't know, a jpop single or something. I'd rather give my money to people who will actually give me the product than bailing out halfway through.
So... now they're transferring the domain name to me, which is good for another half a year and I'm stuck hostless because they couldn't manage finances or whatever.
So please... my site doesn't take up more than 50mb at any point in time and I really need a host right now (one that can tell me wtf to do to transfer the domain to a different server too). If you can spare any space on your domain and have the knowledge to help me transfer it over to your space, I would really, really appreciate it..
edit: new layout edit2: got a new host, will be located here
Is it worth it to climb all the way up to Level 55 and restart again just for a new freakin' 10x10 icon on a TV screen (making it look even smaller)?
I'm not really sure yet. I'll have to cross that road when I come to it-- all I know is, you can restart ten times. Yep, that's right-- TEN times. That's 550 levels. Holy shit.
Yes.. I'm switching back to Firefox. Why? Because.. Opera has started to be the slowest POS ever. It literally takes 20 seconds to load a page which is really fucking annoying in the first place, when I have 6mpbs internet. Also.. it doesn't have all the extensions I want and doesn't load some pages correctly so, FIREFOX welcome back to my computer.
It was announced recently that Ayu went deaf completely in her left ear... So I can give her a little bit of slack for being so shitty at kouhaku. I feel really sorry for her, though. She's going to continue on and not let a little thing such as PARTIAL FREAKIN' DEAFNESS get to her SINGING career! What a wonderful woman.
Edit: This is awesome.. even my BROTHER (who doesn't follow jpop at ALL, he doesn't like it) somehow knew about this and sent me a XBL message today:
Ayumi's deaf in her left ear! [news.xinhuanet.com/english/2...](http://news.xinhuanet.com/english/2008-01/06/content_7372367.htm)
I had a dream of an arcade.. we went in with my gramma and Steve and Amanda, though somehow other people came too.
There were a few different scenarios:
Skeeball: Amanda and Steve and I all played Skeeball. Mine was broken though and the ball would not fit through the plastic thing at the end and was actually SUBTRACTING points. I ended up getting like 5 tickets though.
Mortal Kombat: There was a TV hooked up and it said "Free". They were apparently running an emulator and rom and the person who worked there (who happened to be my cousin, John) said it was so his boss could see how everyone was playing. Steve tried to play and go through the menus but they were all in Italian. He changed it to English and eventually we played. I sucked as usual...
"Singstar?": It was called Singstar but it was really Karaoke Revolution + DDR. Amanda and I played, and I picked "Higher", the DDR song. I yelled at her for not doing the DDR parts (ignoring them completely) and just doing the singing.
Weird Guitar Hero Rip Off: There was a guy playing Guitar Hero Rip Off, and all the colors were in the wrong places so it was really difficult. He wanted me to try it, and I was passing all right but not very well. I exclaimed, "What is this! Lefty Flip!" but it wasn't.
During WGHRO: While I was playing GH Rip Off, Dale came behind me and hugged me and said that he loved me. It was.. a little random and weird, but I felt embarrassed cos my Gramma was there.
After all the games are done: Here's the sad part. For some reason my MOM was there, and she was like "how do you feel about me?" and I told her that I loved her and that she's my mom, and she told me that how she THINKS I feel about her is "I don't love her and don't ever want to talk to her again". Then I woke up..
Steve let me have 35 dollars because he's the sweetest brother in the world, and I bought a Gears of War guide along with a Rock Band guide. I've been playing Gears of War for more than 9 months now so it's kind of a mystery why I haven't bought one yet (and why I haven't actually beat one player by myself). It also has multiplayer maps which will do really good in helping me actually become a better player. The Rock Band one has each individual song outlined by each instrument and developer high scores.. which will help both. <3
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? Drive around with only my brother!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make any last year. I didn't think I needed to. This year, I think I may make "stop drinking pop"
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? I don't know how close they are, but all my cousins are getting pregnant. Literally every girl from my 2nd cousin's family has gotten pregnant this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die? No. Whew.. not sure about next year though..
5. What countries did you visit? Pff I wish I could visit other countries.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? Less procrastination!! I want to be able to drive and get a job..
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? April 4, 2007-- the day I got my very own Xbox 360!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Quitting school. (I know it's weird, but I've been wanting to forever.)
9. What was your biggest failure? Procrastinating 6 months away.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Nope, thankfully.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Xbox 360 by far.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? None...?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? worried? A lot of my friends'. Maybe I'm just pessimistic.
14. Where did most of ALL! your money go? Xbox 360 + stuff.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Rock Band! Man I waited MONTHS for that thing.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007? Epic by Faith no more
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? happier, generally (though I had super pissy moments) ii. thinner or fatter? the same amazingly. iii. richer or poorer? depends on what you mean. If you mean physical money and possessions, I'd say the same. If you mean rich with happiness and good events, I'd say richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Getting out of the house...
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Procrastination
20. How will you be spending did you spend Christmas? ...this question doesn't make sense.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007? Yes
23. How many one-night stands? 0, I'm a virgin ~_~
24. What was your favourite TV programme? I got into Days of Our Lives for 2 seconds.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope.
26. What was the best book you read? I haven't read any. (Hey, don't get on me! I do all my learning online.)
27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery? Ayu, which I had abandoned really.
28. What did you want and get? Xbox 360
29. What did you want and not get? Ayu's new album.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? There were a lot of good ones this year...
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I went out to eat and went shopping. I am 17. (Only one more year 'til the big one eight..)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Be able to meet him physically.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? Same as every year-- do not care.
34. What kept you sane? The people closest to me!
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Ayu, as every year.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Gay marriage. Had one too many debates about that this year.
37. Who did you miss? Amanda! She moved.
38. Who was the best new person you met? Dale..
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: Material possessions are shit. All you really need is love.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: .. I don't even know. D:
I bought $50 worth of Microsoft Points and an Xbox 360 Chat pad, which came with the new mic I needed with a bonus of a chat pad so I don't have to keep typing out messages with the analog stick. I have about $60 left but I don't know what I'll get with it yet. I've only got Zuma (arcade game), War Pigs (Rock Band song), and a picture pack with the MSP thus far.
Man.. that's depressing. I kept telling myself, "Am I really gonna use this?" and ended up with such a small list.. lol! I wanted to keep it to stuff I use daily which is only XBox 360 and Computer.. I thought about ADDING stuff like a camera but I'm not so sure about that seeing as I don't look good in pictures and I don't get out enough to go out and take pictures of other stuff.
I might just save the $60. :< The only thing for SURE I'm going to get is the new Headphones thing.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? [in a SABOTAGE by beastie boys tone]
i need to seriously get a hobby to get my mind off of things.
not like video games, but an actual hobby.
one that i can just do by myself and go off into my own little world every day and try to cool off at.
any ideas!? it has to be free, btw… i don’t have any money, though i’m sure i could ask dad if i could buy stuff from an arts and crafts store or something.
HELP ME FRIENDS
Things I’m thinking about taking up (from most likely to least likely):
Songwriting - Free and something to hone my creativity. HOWEVER I might not be very good at it.
Scrapbooking - I'd need a Polaroid camera + scrapbooking stuff.
This really has been a super long vacation. It has only been a few weeks but being away from my best friends and my boyfriend for a few weeks is more like torture than a vacation. I admit that part of the reason I left was because I needed a break from the daily grind but I guess absense makes the heart grow fonder and the daily grind is the daily grind because I like things like that. I'm starting to see that I don't like change very much.
However, there were a lot of fun parts of the vacation so I can't complain TOO much. When I first came, I brought Rock Band. Gramma and Zack (my 10 year old cousin) and myself all made a band together. We called ourselves the Viper Blood. Yeah, kind of dorky and stupid, but it was something that was automatically generated. Gramma played Drums on Easy. Zack was the singer on Easy. And I was the guitarist on Expert. We were a great band until I brought it downstairs because Gramma was bitching that Roger (her husband) wanted to watch TV on the weekend. Ironically, the cable broke and he couldn't watch it in the living room anyway-- making the trip up and down the stairs with the huge amount of accessories completely irrelevant and unnecessary. Tami and Pat came over and played (well Tami played, Pat woke me up from a dead sleep to have me set it up JUST so he could watch it). Then, the last thing that has to do with Rock Band: Steve came over this weekend and played. We were going to do Endless mode but we got 10 songs in and he started to fall asleep while playing the Bass so I just told him to forget about it and we'll do it some other time (sometime at my house, so he can get the achievements too!).
We went to the mall two times to go to the new arcade there called Slackers. It's really awesome. It has DDR: Extreme but I only played that a few times (there was a guy there that was really good the second time!). Because I was having er girl problems the second time, I couldn't really play too aggressively. And I got tired easily. Zack and I played Skeeball a lot the first time, and the second time with Steve, we played TONS of Deal or No Deal. The first time, with Zack, we only got 400 tickets all together but the second time, with Steve, we got 1003 tickets! We each got 333 tickets, and I feel like I got robbed because I got a big rubber ball but it broke a few minutes after I started playing with it. Oh well, it was funner playing the game than it was to actually get the toy. The highest Steve and I got was 250 tickets from Deal or No Deal. It was between 3 tickets and 400 tickets. We had the 400 in our case! I had the feeling that we did, but we didn't want to risk it... It was still really fun. Gramma thought about buying a TV while we were in the mall, but said that I "talked her out of it" because I told her not to go more into debt just for a big screen TV. I didn't mean to talk her out of it though-- I wanted to see her have a big screen TV! Oh well.
Steve bought the game Scene It! for $40 (poor guy, that's tons of money). We all played it together-- it was really, really fun. I was horrible at it because I don't know many movies. Steve was the best. We played teams the second time we played it, and Steve was on my team so naturally we won! Woo! I only knew a few questions but I really did know the questions that I knew.
We didn't have a whole lot of money so we couldn't go many places. I had a roast beef sandwich over 9000 times, but that's just because I like those. I got into Days of Our Lives, so I'm going to have to see if I can catch that on TV here or if it's only a Direct TV thing. I didn't get into Passions thankfully, because I know for a fact that's a Direct TV only thing.
The entire vacation wasn't all peaches and creams though. Roger (Gramma's husband) was being a serious pain in the ass! As in.. rude. He asked Steve and I, "When's the last time you've seen your gramma and grampa's grave? In the last four years?" and we said "never". How the hell are we supposed to get there? We don't even know where they're buried. I'm not a believer in visiting someone elses' grave. Since I believe that when a person dies, their soul is gone and they just rot in the ground, I don't see why I have to visit their grave. If they were good people, then their legacy will outlive them. And since they were family, they always have a place in my heart. But he didn't need to act pissy and like he's better than us because he visits his family's grave. I was really offended by that and Gramma tried to pretend like it was just because he was working long hours. Bullshit. He's a rude guy.
Zack was good most of the time we were there but he was rude some of the time. He was cussing and swearing and acting up when he heard Steve was coming over. He knew that I would give more attention to Steve than him because I don't get to see Steve often and he's easily tied for #1 place for my family in my heart (tied along with my dad). So of course I'm going to give him attention! He acted really rude to me most of the time when Steve was there but before that he was okay. That's part of the reason I was leaving-- he started acting rude and basically the only reason I was staying was so that he could have company. I was going to stay until the 16th but I was really hurting from missing Dale and my friends. 15th is going to be his birthday party, so I'll probably pop in for that but I'm not staying the weekend or anything. I might stay a few hours at most.
Another bad thing that happened was that Mom called. Gramma made me talk to her and she "just found out" that I quit school (though she didn't-- she was leaving bad messages on my answering machine before that, and later she admitted that she knew and it "just now hit her", yeah right). A lot of drama was caused because of that and I was going to go home however I decided to stay. Mom said that she was going to "come get me and make me realize I was wasting my life". What, like she did? She's a hypocrite.
That's basically all that happened... I think. All the important stuff, unless you count my gramma crapping her pants to be important! (It was funny but.. sick.)
Steve will probably come over at Christmas break. Looking forward to that! He's been really generous lately and I'm surprised. In a happy way. I'm not really looking forward to Christmas itself because it means nothing to me-- not like I'm getting presents or anything, and since I'm athiest it has no religious meaning. Haha.
TL;DR: Vacation was overall good, but I missed everyone!
PS: There was some really embarrassing mix up where I thought Amanda's online BFF Eric was a guy I used to know and be fairly close to, Luke. It ended up in a 3 hour conversation with him about Amanda and other stuff. Weird...
it is the awesomest shit ever! and apparently some peoples' best buys didn't get copies in until tomorrow, i would've been so pissed!
i'm trying to beat the solo career on expert right now. i have the highest leaderboard for the song "dani california" and have 100% hit on expert on that, which means it's like the maximum score.
i'm also #2 on the vocal career overall leaderboards.
i know that's going to change as soon as more people get the game but whatever lol.
i had my alarm set for 8am but ended up getting up at 7am because the anticipation was making me wake up every few hours.
best buy opens at 10am here, so dad is gonna get up at 9am and we have to get started then because the thunderbird only goes 30mph max. we have to take a back road XD
I AM SO EXCITED!
gonna go try to pass time by watching america's next top model season 8...
Band World Tour is only offline and only 2+ players?
Wow, that really puts me off of Rock Band, because that was the thing I was looking forward to the most, and now I hear I can't even play it unless two people are playing *unless I want to sing while I play, which would cause me to need a mic stand.. and to know the songs of course*
I'm sure it won't be a problem at first, but it's going to be annoying after I beat all the songs on Expert in 1p mode.. well hopefully by then either they'll have patched it with online Band World Tour or I know all the songs singing by heart and can sing and do the drums at the same time or something. Gah.
It felt horrible and was unintentional. I apologized but he said it wasn't my fault.
It was because I said I have no female role models, which is the truth.
I was really upset at my gramma and started crying because she was talking behind my back. Dad started the whole "it's just your gramma, that's just the way she is" spiel before he realized it was because I wanted a female role model and she was the last one left, and turns out she's a backtalking traitor too.
He started crying because he said that I can always go to his family but he realized I wasn't close enough to any of them to go to them. He thinks that he's the one that caused this, and it's not true. And it makes me cry just thinking about him blame himself. It is not his fault at all.
I wouldn't mind going to those family members if I knew them better, but I always didn't want to go. I have a hard time making new friends and to me, my family is new friends because I haven't been around them for a long time. To me, they are random people who I can't really trust, besides my gramma who talks about me behind my back.
Also, for the first time in my life, I mentioned to him "someone that I like online and have been talking to for 7 or 8 months". So now he knows, and I figure that has something to do with it too. I think he's not stupid and since I also mentioned "makeup and boys" as a couple of things I want to talk to a female role model about, and mentioned the whole "Go out with Danny" ordeal, I really do think he understands because he can put two and two together.
Another thing I think he's upset about is the way that she treats me is the same way she treated mom. He even said to me, "Yeah, she used to be that way about me and your mom. Whenever your mom would be mad at me, she'd go to her and your gramma would start naming off new people to go to."
God. . . I feel horrible for making him feel that way. But at least, now, everything is out in the open. I will be able to sleep well for the first night in a very long time.
(9:12:51 PM) me: i still think it's dispicable that you would make a new room to get maximus away (9:13:10 PM) Matt: okay (9:13:27 PM) Matt: not when everyone in the entire room doesnt like him (9:13:33 PM) Matt: and only you do (9:13:37 PM) me: Whatever. (9:13:40 PM) Matt: and you're not even playing (9:13:42 PM) me: This is why I fucking disadd you, this is why you annoy me. (9:13:46 PM) me: It's fucking bullying. (9:13:48 PM) me: It doesn't matter. (9:13:52 PM) me: There's no reason not to LIKE him. (9:13:56 PM) me: He hasn't done a god damned thing to ANYONE. (9:13:58 PM) me: AND YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT. (9:14:12 PM) Matt: loook (9:14:13 PM) me: What, he happens to have a higher pitched voice than everyone? is that it? (9:14:19 PM) me: All he's ever been is fucking NICE (9:14:26 PM) Matt: to you (9:14:29 PM) Matt: and only you (9:14:30 PM) me: And all you fucking people think it's COOL FUN ETC to make FUN of him (9:14:35 PM) me: He's never done nayhting to you guys! (9:14:35 PM) Matt: amber amber amber (9:14:37 PM) me: He's a fucking KID (9:14:38 PM) me: HE IS A KID (9:14:44 PM) me: HE'S NICE TO ME BECAUSE IM NICE TO HIM! (9:14:50 PM) me: You guys are needlessly rude, nasty, etc with him! (9:14:50 PM) Matt: okay (9:14:55 PM) me: "maximus is a fag" (9:14:57 PM) me: "maximus is annoying" (9:14:58 PM) me: etc (9:15:09 PM) me: he hasn't done ANYTHING and he couldn't fucking hurt a fly because he's a KID and actually rather innocent (9:15:33 PM) Matt: okay (9:15:35 PM) Matt: yea (9:15:41 PM) me: Yeah, so why the fuck exclude him? (9:15:42 PM) me: Oh yeah. (9:15:44 PM) me: Because it's COOL. (9:15:48 PM) me: Because it's cool to pick on maximus! (9:15:54 PM) me: It's cool to bully the little kid! Yeah, that's real fucking manly. (9:16:07 PM) me: Bully someone three years younger than you. That's the way to get the ladies and respect! (9:16:22 PM) me: Amirite? (9:16:32 PM) me: It's immature, it's fucking rude, and it's unnecessary. (9:16:38 PM) Matt: okay (9:16:40 PM) Matt: sure (9:16:47 PM) Matt: okay (9:16:54 PM) me: He gets enough of that at school. (9:17:01 PM) me: Gets fucking picked on, pushed around because he's smaller than everone. (9:17:27 PM) me: He doesn't need to come onto fucking Xbox live and feel excluded because a fucking bunch of boys who just hit puberty decided it was a cool thing to pick on someone three years younger than them. (9:17:49 PM) me: Mainly AJ, which is why I don't fucking like him. There's no reason for him to be mean to Max and he's really the one who started it. (9:18:02 PM) Matt: no max is (9:18:11 PM) me: Max didn't do shit and you fucking know it. (9:18:24 PM) Matt: max lied (9:18:26 PM) me: He talks shit sometimes. Fucking tell him off and be done with it. (9:18:30 PM) Matt: about activing (9:18:38 PM) me: Don't antagonize him. (9:18:59 PM) me: There's something dispicable and deplorable about antagonizing anyone let alone someone who lacks the proper maturity and age to deal with that kind of shit! (9:19:14 PM) me: Though I truly doubt all of your maturity at this poitn. (9:19:15 PM) me: ^*point (9:19:39 PM) Matt: okay (9:20:05 PM) me: This is why I don't play gears. (9:20:10 PM) me: You ask, WHY DONT YOU PLAY GEARS ANYMORE ZOMG (9:20:21 PM) me: It's because of this stupid BULLSHIT that you and the others CONSTANTLY PULL whenever Max and you guys get together! (9:20:54 PM) me: max is nice to me because i'm nice to him. I'm sure max would be nice to aj, steve, etc if they were nice to him but they lack the ability to be nice because they're fucking assholes. (9:21:12 PM) me: They'll do anything for a laugh including harrassing someone. (9:21:18 PM) me: I just thought you were above that shit. (9:22:03 PM) Matt: i am (9:22:14 PM) Matt: you know im a nice person (9:22:20 PM) Matt: you know that (9:22:21 PM) me: I know you are. So I don't know why you do this I HATE MAX (9:22:24 PM) me: MAX IS A FUCK (9:22:25 PM) me: stuff. (9:23:18 PM) Matt: hmmm (9:23:24 PM) Matt: he is annoying (9:23:40 PM) me: He's annoying. But he doesn't do it intentionally and that shouldn't cause hatred. (9:23:53 PM) me: And even if you do hate him, you should ust keep it to yourself because he didn't really do anything wrong. (9:24:35 PM) me: And it's not like you're superbad about it like aj and steve are. (9:24:50 PM) Matt: what do you mean by that (9:24:51 PM) Matt: ? (9:24:57 PM) me: AJ and Steve are like (9:25:05 PM) me: "Lol maximus, or should I say FAGISMUS" (9:25:09 PM) me: when he hadn't said anything for a really long time (9:25:21 PM) me: and it was pissing me off. maximus wasn't doing anything, wasn't replying (9:25:42 PM) me: and they were continually antagonizing him every time at the dead zone (9:25:44 PM) me: for NO APPARENT REASON (9:25:48 PM) me: and he continued to not reply, kept quiet etc (9:25:54 PM) me: Doesn't that fucking make you feel sad? (9:26:50 PM) me: frankly I muted them all because it's that kind of bully mob mentality that I absolutely HATE in a person (9:27:45 PM) me: why the hell is a 16, 17, and 19 year old ganging up on a 13 year old? (9:27:52 PM) me: for the laughs? (9:27:55 PM) me: that's WRONG (9:27:57 PM) me: anyway you look at it (9:28:09 PM) Matt: hmmm (9:28:46 PM) me: I can't hate steve because he's my brother (9:28:48 PM) me: but I do hate AJ for it (9:28:54 PM) me: and hate is a word I use rarely and honestly mean it (9:29:25 PM) me: AJ is alwyas about "being cool" and "keepin it real" but I find nothing "cool" about harrassing a kid that age.
the conversation basically ended there... i got tired... i'm gonna go to bed soon...
Rules: The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.
01] Dale♥ Whenever I talk to him, I am happier. He makes my life worth living♥ 02] Morning Musume & Ayu.. well, music in general, I guess. If it's a happy song, I get happy! 03] Getting stuff for free! 04] Steve and Amanda♥ My brother and my best friend! They can both cheer me up when I'm feeling upset or down. Steve is brutally honest which I really appreciate and Amanda always makes me feel good about myself. 05] Making other people happy. I sub so that other people can understand things and enjoy the videos better. I try to do my best everyday to help other people out when I can, and when I see that they are truly happy because of it, it makes me happier than anything. 06] Watching Tyra and court TV! And comedies too ♥ I love learning stuff, and I also love people who are inspirational, and things that make me laugh. Whenever I laugh, I'm happy. 07] When I actually work for something and can buy it myself. When I worked for those 1600 Microsoft Points and didn't make dad pay $20 for me, I felt so liberated and like I really earned them! (And I didn't spend them so quickly knowing that too XDD) 08] Dancing and singing. Singing mostly, unfortunately because it makes me so happy, when someone criticizes me, I get really upset T___T 09] Rock Band which is coming out in FOUR DAYS #(Y*RY*#RHOSDGHDSGH I CANNOT WAIT! We're gonna line up before Best Buy opens and rush in there and get a copy! ♥ 10] Simple pleasures such as rain pattering outside the window or calm music. It makes me happy and peaceful.
Um.. I'm glad I did this. Because a lot of people say I'm super moody and angry all the time and hard to please, I think this is a list that can be useful. XDD
this game is addictive. they're offering it for free for everyone on the 15th because it's xbl's 5 year anniversary and i thought it wouldn't be too good.
5 hours and 9 achievements later, i proved myself wrong (that's right, i only have 4 achievements to go, weeee).
anyone who has xbl should really give it a try especially since today you can download it for free and have it forever.
By googling my phone number not only did I find my Dad's name, but I also found our address and a fuckin' map to where we live!
Good thing about apartments: it didn't show which apartment building we live in, so it would be impossible to actually track us down.
Anyway, I used gaminglagoon to get myself 1600 Microsoft Points. I can't believe it actually worked, haha... I bought Puzzle Fighter which is a pretty fun game, and kept 800 points in case a game comes out that I want to buy RIGHT away. <33