Dreams
#Last night I had a dream that Ethan died. It was upsetting.. I’m not sure why. I haven’t talked to him in over a year, yet his deviantart says he came online two days ago. I bugged him by sending him a note, but I think he’s just trying to get on with his life. I should probably respect that, but I’m not. Ha!
Kiah’s been not on for a few days also, so I feel a little lonely. I barely have any good friends, so I need to make some (any takers?). Right now there’s just Kiah and Dustin. I’ve actually started to play video games again, and a racing game at that, so it shows that I really lack any friends.
Also, dad made me feel bad when we were eating out. I mentioned wanting to get a Curves membership this summer since one just opened up around us. He said it was okay, but about ten minutes later he retaliated with “Didn’t I just spend $100 on contacts you don’t even want?” which prompted me to say something along the lines of “I do! I just lost one!” and we got into a big discussion/argument over that. I felt really bad, because it made me think he thought my eyesight and health were unworthy expenses.
I still want to be able to wear Baby The Stars Shine Bright clothes. That means somehow I’ll have to get down to a size 9, and then I’ll have to get the money to actually buy them. I think the weight will be more of an issue than the money.. But that is my dream. So I guess the post title means both physical dreams, and life dreams, even those which can be considered unobtainable.. but I don’t consider btssb to be unobtainable. Just unlikely.
Kiah’s been not on for a few days also, so I feel a little lonely. I barely have any good friends, so I need to make some (any takers?). Right now there’s just Kiah and Dustin. I’ve actually started to play video games again, and a racing game at that, so it shows that I really lack any friends.
Also, dad made me feel bad when we were eating out. I mentioned wanting to get a Curves membership this summer since one just opened up around us. He said it was okay, but about ten minutes later he retaliated with “Didn’t I just spend $100 on contacts you don’t even want?” which prompted me to say something along the lines of “I do! I just lost one!” and we got into a big discussion/argument over that. I felt really bad, because it made me think he thought my eyesight and health were unworthy expenses.
I still want to be able to wear Baby The Stars Shine Bright clothes. That means somehow I’ll have to get down to a size 9, and then I’ll have to get the money to actually buy them. I think the weight will be more of an issue than the money.. But that is my dream. So I guess the post title means both physical dreams, and life dreams, even those which can be considered unobtainable.. but I don’t consider btssb to be unobtainable. Just unlikely.