Dale and I had a conversation today, well.. maybe an argument (I was fairly defensive for no apparent reason). I don't really know. It was about Command & Conquer 3. He said that he wanted to try to help me but he was telling me step-by-step how to beat him. I don't want a walkthrough. I'd rather lose a million times then win ONCE with a "walkthrough". He said he wasn't giving me a walkthrough but instead he was giving me tips. I didn't consider "Put up anti-infantry, I'm bringing in infantry" to be a 'tip'. I know he means the best and just wants to help.. he even got to the point where he asked "do you even like to play this game?" after I said I was too lazy to do the campaign.

I was even too lazy to do the campaign on Gears of War until I did it with someone else... I have no real desire to play a game that I can't play with others. I may be spoiled in this way.

But I'm glad he's trying, and I really appreciate it-- though my attitude doesn't seem like that. Sometimes I hate myself, I really have to start acting better or I'm afraid he's going to leave me because I'm such a bitch. I don't know why I get so fucking defensive of my weird personality and attitude towards video games and life in general, especially when I try so hard not to.