I think this is the oldest I can find, archived @ Oct 09, 2002.

Meh.. I need to stop reliving my past. I keep searching down people like Leo, Mercy, Gin, and Li, but those people, although they were very important friends to me before, are now gone in my life. I need to let the past be the past and stop trying to bring it back. I need to focus on the future now, because that's what's important.