i was playing an online pictionary game with a person who i thought was my friend. i've known him for a few years.

it basically went down like this:

ONE OF THESE THINGS IS NOT LIKE THE OTHER.

(god forbid i can't make out his horribly, horribly shitty excuses for 'drawings', amirite?)

understandably, i left. i just said "i'm leaving" and closed out.
he IMs me saying "why'd you leave?" and i just said "because you're an ass. going to bed. night."

SERIOUSLY? is he that stupid? (it doesn't surprise me)

i tried to keep my response game-related. even though he was calling me stupid, all i pointed out was that my 'stupid guesses' were winning the game. then he got all butthurt and decided to make a personal jab at me. AND HE STILL CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHAT HE DID WRONG. i even asked him to stop earlier in the game because i know how petty/bitchy/catty he can get (worst than any girls i've ever met)

i didn't start calling him stupid. i didn't call him slightly less fat than me but still massive (his bmi is TWO points lower). i didn't say he was a tease for so deliberately flirting with someone when he already had a boyfriend. i didn't say he's a spoiled little rich kid who gets whatever he wants when he cries to mommy about it. all of these are true, but i knew the realm of appropriate response was game trash talking him back.

making an already stressed out supposed "friend" cry through making fun of them ftw, i suppose. i was so upset/shocked because i didn't think it was going to go that way, and i thought he was my friend. i usually don't expect that kind of behavior/talk from someone i consider to be my 'friend', so the tears were just as much out of shock as they were out of upsetness.

i have asked him and everyone else not to call me by my real name and he deliberately started calling me by it when he was pissed. most likely? i cried because of someone calling me by my name rather than the fat thing. i'm secure in my fatness but at the moment i am NOT secure in my gender and calling me by my name really, really bothers me. yes, to the point where i will burst into tears when referred to as 'amber', and the female pronoun is getting that way too. way to be, asshole.

he's going to have to apologize big time if he wants to keep my friendship, and even then? he's going to be on thin ice for a LONG TIME. he's officially jumped from 'friend i can trust with secrets who will never deliberately hurt me' to 'guy i kinda know that i talk to sometimes that i wouldn't trust as far as i can throw'.

good luck climbing back up there, man. it took you years before, and it's going to take you even longer now.