Steve: Gabby said you were hitting on her. Me: What?! Steve: She said you said she looked like a bisexual or something. Me: For one, that's not even hitting on someone. For two, I said nothing like that!
I proceeded to get on myspace IM and bitch at her about it.
Steve's already planning on breaking up with her, so it doesn't really hurt my feelings much.
The closest thing I could even think that she could get out of that was that she left me a message saying "you're totally pretty!" and I reciprocated. In the words of Amanda: "you return a compliment and all the sudden you wanna fuck her? totally not the homophobe thing to say".
She's not even that cute, I only said it to be nice. She was the first one to call me "really pretty"! I have a girlfriend I love, and I'm not going to leave her for anyone, especially not a fugly rumor spreading clingy cuntrag who 1) refuses to verify rumors she spreads and 2) gets pissed when Steve can't come get her because we have a fucked up car.
This is why I'm not nice to anyone. Whenever I'm falsely nice to people, it comes back to bite me in the ass. I'd rather be an upfront bitch than a falsely nice person (like Gabby obviously is).
TOL ~disappeared off the face of the internet~ again, and i don't care this time lmfao. she basically used me last time as tech support to get an ISO off the computer, promised she'd keep talking to me and all that, then disappeared. basically, royal class bitch.
so i had a friends cut. only a few people remain. fuck yeah.
I made my own wallpaper for the first time in what seems like centuries.
It's amazing, isn't it? It took me forever to try to decide on a border. I wanted to cut them out, but they already had a background. At first I thought about doing the grungy scribbles that used to be popular in webdesign in like 2006, but then it was hard to actually cut them out. Then I tried a dotted border, but it looked stupid. So I ended up with this. I'm not sure if I'm done with it yet, but considering it's grayscale and minimalistic like I love, it should be fine and finished.
So I got a job interview at an auto parts place. Here was the job listing. I don’t know whether I really want this job or not. It includes local deliveries and requires a driver’s license, which may be bad because I hate driving. I’m not really sure if I’ll pass the Motor Vehicle Report (because of the motorcycle thing.) Also, not sure if I can lift 50 lbs. It pays $9 an hour though, which is a few bucks more than any other entry level position. In short, I’m kind of iffy about the job. If I get it, great. If I don’t, that’s okay too.
Pick up your friend at midnight when they say they need to be checked into a hospital or they'll kill themselves. Proceed to attempt to talk them out of it. They will continue to somewhat insist that they need medical attention, but refuse to be completely firm on the matter because they're afraid to 'burden' others. This will give you minor hope that you can go home without an incident. No such luck. You will give in after talking to them in the hospital parking lot for a half hour.
Subsequently, you will stay by their side for the six hour wait, one which has absolutely no entertainment except a blank wall. During this six hour wait, said friend will fall asleep because said friend has a bed to sleep on. But not you, True Friend™. You have but only your trusty plastic blue chair from hell, one that would give even the most fit of men a backache for weeks. You may manage to doze off once for ten minutes, but besides that, do not expect much! Your greatest accomplishment of the night will undoubtedly be finally remembering all the words to Master of Puppets.
An exhausted psychiatrist, an old guy whose only qualification seems to be 'being old', and a snobby nurse will all ask your friend the same generic questions, and she will give the same vague, avoidant answers, making you wonder why exactly you bothered in the first place. Ultimately, a psychiatrist will deem her mentally stable (if not completely apathetic) and give her the number to the local psyche ward to schedule an appointment, promptly sending her (and you) home.
But do not think of this as six hours wasted, True Friend™. Think of it as an excuse to get your sleep schedule back into nocturnal. And hey, I bet you've never appreciated a comfortable bed like you do right now!
PROTIP: Try to forget about the fact that the reason she was driven to near-suicide was the fact that her Craigslist Boyfriend broke up with her. The epic rage will eventually melt into sweet, sweet bitterness.
I'm feeling trapped at the moment.. like I can't go anywhere. Before this, I always had the comfort of knowing I could move to gramma's if things ever got bad. But coming back from her house, it's painfully obvious that she didn't want me moving there. I hinted around moving in and was shot down every single time. That's a scary thought. I have only here to be, and I got in a huge argument with dad yesterday about moving my computer into my bedroom. It's fucking sickening and I feel trapped. Same fucking routine, every single goddamn day.
Anyway, I'm not a happy person atm. I have a headache and came out into the living room, hungry. All I could think about was how much I wanted those last corn dogs in the fridge. And, of course, someone ate them. Fuckers. I should slap them.
Okay, so I haven't had a chance to make an update for a few days.
...That's a lie, I've just been too lazy, really. I'm gonna do an entry about this week in a HIGHLIGHTZ 4 KIDZ version:
Metallica on Timewarp. It was okay, not really that great. The best part was probably Lars joking ("Are you seeing something you haven't noticed before?" "Yeah, my receding hairline") and James spitting all over the mic. Seeing Kirk's fingers go super slow ("I've never played that slow before!") and Robert desperately trying to blow out an amp and epically failing are a few more awesome parts about the show. I didn't like that they showed other shit though. What the shit does a dirt bike have to do with Metallica?
Been trying out new browsers because Firefox has become super slow. As I type this, my text lags. Of course. Anyway, the browser I've chosen is Flock. It's based from Firefox, so it still is a bit slow but not quite as slow. Also, I can use Ad-Block which is great! I wish Google Chrome had Ad-Block but it doesn't. Anyway, Flock has won me over. All its social features are great. Even as I'm writing this entry, I can see what all my friends are doing, which is awesome. I mean, what would I do without the immediate, left-hand sidebar style knowledge that my girlfriend was yawning 10 hours ago!?
Arguments ahoy this week. I don't know. Have I just been irritated? It's kind of stressing me out, though. People are pissing me off this week. But I've made up with every single one of the people I've argued with, so maybe everyone's just touchy. It's the spring weather, I tell ya. No one would pull this shit during winter. That's my home turf, after all.
Amanda and Josh broke up, and she's now talking to another guy. I'm happy about the former fact, but I don't know how to feel about the latter. The guy's name is Jason and he's pretty cool nonetheless. A lot cooler than Josh, not that it's a particularly difficult task, haha.
WEBSITE HOSTS, RAAAGE. I'm sure no one cares about them, but I'll make a TL;DR version: I've had to switch hosts like three times in one week. This is not an easy task. I've decided to get hosted with someone that I'm actually getting to know and like, this guy @ idiologic.com. His name is Ben, and he's pretty freakin' neat.
so i was recently just trying out the browser google chrome. oh my god, it's so fast, and it's way prettier than firefox. HOWEVER, firefox has all the add-ons i need, and google chrome does not have add-ons. it's hard to choose between the two.
can i really live without ad-block, lj username switcher, and lj add-on (unfolds comments, etc)? the former two aren't that important but the previous really is. it's so annoying seeing ads everywhere when i've become so accustomed to not seeing them. lasgklskdg
however, i'm still deciding. i'll let you all know what i decide, because i know you all care ~oh so much~
oh and i decided all my "lol one sentence!" entries are gonna just be thrown on twitter instead of just cluttering up friends list from now on.
The sad thing is, I've been at the computer every single minute of it. I've literally been sitting at the computer for almost a whole day straight. Just fuckin' chatting and rping.
Yeah, so if I don't come online tonight flag, it's because I couldn't wake up for the night.
I guess I'll use this time to say that more tickets for Grand Rapids Metallica concert in Nov turned up on ebay, but as usual they're at scalper Fuck You In The Ass prices. And as usual, I've been far too lazy to actually go to the temp service and get a job. Supposedly Steve and Danny are moving out soon, which means less drain on our resources. They were like, "It'll cost us 175 combined to live at the Roadway Inn, and dad's gonna try to charge us 200 bucks combined!" And I was thinking (but I didn't say because hell, I want them to move): "Yeah? Does that include fucking food and gas?" They're pretty... dumb. They aren't realistic about money.
if you were removed, you fell into one of the following criteria:
i don't know who the hell you are.
i don't feel comfortable having you read my entries.
i'm not interested in your life anymore.
we lost touch as friends.
you never added me back.
i don't remove people for stupid reasons like "Lol nvr commenting!!!1" or "never updating!" but i do remove them if i think that we honestly can't be called friends anymore. so. if i removed you, uh, tough shit? please don't take it personally. it isn't personal!
Every person who is a fan of H!P has their own crazy conspiracy theories. It’s impossible to be a fan without thinking that there’s something going on behind the scenes that we don’t know about. A big example of a recent one is “What happened to Goto? She just quit? She HAD to have motives. Maybe she wasn’t happy with the management. Maybe it was because of her brother. Maybe it was because she had a man.” Everyone has their own idea of why Goto quit, and theories about her coming back as well. Another big one I can think of is “Where is Aibon now and did she purposely sabotage her way out of H!P?”
But I’m not here to talk about those. I couldn’t care less to talk about those. This is the person in question for today:
Miki Fujimoto. She’s a very cunning woman, and I’d like to say I think she’s too cunning. I think she had a plan to get her solo career back this entire time.
Imagine being a young teenage girl who has a passion for singing and wants to break into the market (I know, hard to imagine, but bare with me). You’re pretty desperate. You notice that Morning Musume is having an audition very soon. So, you practice your favorite song over and over, and the day comes where you must audition. You do your best, but they don’t call you back for some time.
You’re understandably pretty depressed. Until one day, they call you back and tell you they want you to be a soloist! You’re psyched. You couldn’t ask for anything better. You give your 100% in every song, and get used to being a soloist. You put out a few singles, maybe an album, and catch on to the business very well. You’re on top of the world.
One day, Tsunku calls you and says he needs to have a meeting with you. He tells you that he thinks it would be a good idea right now for you to join Morning Musume. But… had you not been good enough to be a soloist? You’re understandably pretty pissed off. But you know that if you don’t accept his offer, you’ll be fired. Although it’s taking a step back, you think this will only be temporary and will do better for your career in the long run. Tsunku knows best, right?
A year passes. Another year passes. 4 or 5 years have passed and it’s becoming glaringly obvious that Tsunku never meant for this to be a “temporary thing”. You start to formulate a plan. Tsunku put you in a group with your best friend and you want to join that permanently and quit Morning Musume. You wait it out, make sure that this group is going to be a permanent thing, and then, you make your move.
You call up a couple of paparazzi and make sure that everyone will see you with your boyfriend. When the news comes out in the papers, you act surprised and quickly resign. You know that H!P needs you, so this plan cannot fail.
You wait it out. Finally, Tsunku says that he wants you back in Hello!Project. He does you one better than your best-friend-duo. He offers you your solo career back! Great! Your plan has worked. Happily ever after.
Now, I would have nothing against Fujimoto doing this. The only thing that pisses me off is the exact same thing happened to Yaguchi, and we have yet to see anything but Uta Doki and a few MC performances from her. Definitely no single, definitely no album. Why the hell is Yaguchi being shafted while Fujimoto is being rewarded? Oh well. Tsunku’s mind works in mysterious (and sometimes faulty) ways. I guess there was just no demand for Yagucchan. ;__;
I AM OUTRAGED BY THIS UNEVEN LINE DISTRIBUTION. Tsunku is being insane again.
I mean, the new generation isn’t even seen. WTF. They literally HIDE THEM IN THE SHADOWS. Only two or three members are shown. WTF Tsunku? WTF. I do like how it’s kind of urban and dark though. That’s really cool. This song would be perfect if everyone had even line distribution, srysly.
If anyone doesn’t know what I’m talking about or hasn’t heard it yet, I’m talking about the Morning Musume single.
You can stream it here: “Summer Night Town” (more like Summer Night Abe, amirite?)
(for legal reasons this entry is a joke/making fun of the resonant blue angst)
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Anywho. My thoughts on Resonant Blue? AWESOME SONG. I keep listening to it, trying to figure out why the hell I like it so much. It’s probably because I’ve liked these kinds of music in the past so it shouldn’t be a real surprise why I like it now. Technically, it’s a really good song. The bassline is strong and the drums are passable. Most of the song is made up of the singing, but Tsunku always creates his songs to cater to the voices (which makes sense). The vocals are strong (even if they aren’t split up very evenly). Tsunku is back to putting his voice in every single line, for whatever God awful reason. This song reminds me of something they would’ve made way back then, but the leads would’ve been Abe and Fukuda. That would’ve been interesting to listen to…
Thoughts about the PV? It’s really good. The choreography is spot on, and really fun to watch. I hate how the other members literally (and quite intentionally) blend into the background, though. After all, this is “Morning Musume” not “Takahashi, Tanaka, and Kusumi ft. other girls” just like I said on Hello!Online. I did a test in Windows Media Player, increasing the brightness two times and then zooming in on each corner so you could see the other members better. I wonder if anyone would be interested in me uploading those to Youtube too? It’s a lot easier to see the members but remember this isn’t the highest quality rip in the world so it would probably look even worse after being changed to .wmv.
And for those who don’t know me, I guess I should make a short self introduction. This IS a new blog after all, and why should you care about some random person’s opinion? Hopefully this will let you in on my point of view a little more.
My IRL name is XXXXX (omg no girls on the internet!). Many people don’t know that. I’m more commonly known as “Gray”, “agrayrainbow” (subtitling/Hello!Online), “toxicrainn” (on youtube), and “Masabi” (at jphip). I’m going to be 18 in June and I live in Michigan. I’ve been listening to Morning Musume since 2003 off and on, and I’ve followed it like a religion since 2005. I may come off as cynical or downright bitchy 90% of the time, but it gets my point across. I’m always up for debate especially when it comes to Hello!Project and every comment on this blog will be read (if not replied to). The purpose of this blog is to stop cluttering comment spaces and repeating myself on several blogs/news sites and just responding to news here.
I have an RSS syndicate under “Meta” or you can just bookmark me. If you’d like to be in my blogroll, comment here. I know tons of H!P sites but I only really go to InternationalWota so that’s the only site linked for now (that is until someone asks me to link them).
Oh, and if you couldn’t tell, the site’s name is “Mitsuboshi” (mi ★ tsu ★ boshi) which comes from Kusumi Koharu’s album name.
People that can have the URL and will be readded: exoticdisco, jupernia, raspberrysyrup, theonlydale
I will keep this journal still alive for memories and so I can read my friends lists' entries.
If you have anything to say to me about this or any other issue, feel free to comment as I will be checking it occasionally.
PS: you can thank AJ for this! That scumbag decided it was a good idea to let Amanda (someone I ranted angrily about) use his account. Said drama had NOTHING to do with him, he just thought it was proper to let someone I purposely removed read my LJ. Classy, huh?
Didn't get on the internet for a few days. I've been playing so much COD4 because Danny came over with his XBox 360, I didn't even get a chance to sign on now and then. Oh well.
A lot of drama happened with Manng and Amanda. Well, not a LOT. She came on and I chat invited her.. and she lied, saying she "didn't get it" and I asked her, "why are you on the xbox?" And she answered, of course, "to talk to matt". That was like the last straw for me and I just deleted them both and I have no intention of talking to either of them again. They've been so buddy buddy and avoiding me, so I just figured "hey, might as well give them what they want". (also AJ sucks)
I finally got to level 54 on COD4 though, which is a good thing. I level grinded there tonight and am happy. I'll have level 55 to shoot for, which is the max level. All I get for level 55 is a golden Desert Eagle though, which I'm not too thrilled about.
I finally found out how to mute everyone but the people on my friends list on Xbox and it really helps. COD4 has so much of the "Halo Jackass Frat Boy Crowd" that I got sick of hearing it and I literally didn't want to play because of it. So now I can only hear my few friends.. sure, I may be missing out on a few new friends, but I'm not in the business of making new friends and I'd probably just delete them later.
Speaking of new friends, today, in a random match, I saw a person named "Berryz RISAKO". I friend requested them and they accepted.. because it's so, so rare to find anyone into H!P on the Xbox. I didn't even realize it at first.. I was bitching at the guy:
"God?! Who is this, in my fucking way. Just STANDING there. Risako... Ohhh. They must like BK, that's awesome!"
Not to mention they're from Japan (I can tell from some of the games they've played). That makes it a little difficult to talk to them. I sent them a message "berryz koubou is awesome!!" and they sent back "yes!!!!!" so I think they understood that but I don't think they understand English.
Um.. I'm going to bed now. At 10:30AM. I am not going to wake up until night tomorrow.. pathetic of me. @___@//
Okay.. so on the whole "losing weight" idea, I made a list of foods I think would be good. I researched them and they're all filling and less fatty than the foods I've been eating. Stuff like:
fruits and nuts
raisin bread
whole wheat bread
bagels + fat free cream cheese
eggs (just because we never get them)
wheat thins
low fat yogurt
water instead of pepsi
soup (chicken noodle and tomato)
And he got all of these things.. plus a few things I forgot and went above and beyond by buying different healthy stuff. I realized I didn't really put any real "meal" foods on there but that's because I just want to constantly snack lightly the entire day so all my food has a chance to digest.
- Stop drinking pop - Stop eating fast food (Subway just ham and cheese is OK) - Stop eating sweets = Lose weight!
I just stepped on the scale today. It was not a pretty sight. I wouldn't dare repeat that number here, but all I know is I've got to stop eating the wrong foods. I know exercise is kinda bleh and won't happen (due to lack of motivation and lack of means) but if I cut down on the sugary shit I should lose weight.
